Easter used to be my favourite holiday, this year i could barely be bothered to drag down the big buckets filled with all my treasured decorations of years past. nothing is the same. i dont recognize anything about my life or myself for that matter. i dont know what to do with myself for fun other than sleep. I want to be able to do things but I just dont know how. every other mom I know who lost their kids basically went crazy in one form or the other. i am doing y best to stay on the side of normallcy but it is much more difficult then it seems. which is why i guess, that i just want to sleep and watch the calendar tick away until they are returned. you bet i have low self esteem and i have no idea how i'm supposed to raise it with out my babearoos in sight. ugg, i'm even openly drooling now. that has to count for at least a little bit crazy.
The Pinhead Chronicles *DISCLAIMER* This blog is a semi autobiographical account of the contributor's real lives, past, present and future. Due to the sensitive nature of some events, the names of real people, and places are changed, in order to protect their privacy.
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