Sometimes, at the beginning of starting methadone, or when they up your dose you get pretty tired. Thats why I went up. I wasnt really "nodding off" anymore and there are already so many hours in the day to fill. I dont want to be alert and full of pain, I cant handle it anymore. I just dont think I will ever be over this. It looks to me as if there is alot riding on my apppointments with my counsellor. And that more than a little scares and confuses me. It is much better than ever trying to hope that CAS or my parents are ever going to figure it out. I still cant believe that this is all happening. Why was this allowed to happen? There has just got to be nmore to it than to than just the kids dad's incompetence. I have proved a thousand times over that I am competent to raise tthe kids. I am so sad today. So sick of this. So lost. maybe i should just sleep
The Pinhead Chronicles *DISCLAIMER* This blog is a semi autobiographical account of the contributor's real lives, past, present and future. Due to the sensitive nature of some events, the names of real people, and places are changed, in order to protect their privacy.
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